DAYS OF REVELRY

it's a plain stupid move in order to search for the answer even if i need to do all this.. but even if it's stupid, i'll continue on even if it reach to the point of no truth being told to me. so this is like a hiding game. nevertheless, even if i didn't get the answer, at least i got clues. why did he want it to be this way...? along the road people get satisfaction, heartbroken, mad for continuing this rather than stop it. but whatever it is, in the end, i don't get anything cause it's the feeling of wanting to know. it's a sacrifice which i learnt. that's how the wall built up. if you know this, at least it ease your heart and mind to see someone got fooled and played. of course, i know i'm being control by this stupid stuff which leads to something which is not natural to me. deep down i know how i am but being blanked out by you and that. i hope the best for me even if it means a dead road. i 'redha' but i'm just happy i loved **. just a setback by bad thoughts *which might be real*. we'll see how it goes. it's as simple as it is. i just want to know what's happening. i wonder what happen next...?