Sunday, December 11, 2011

i've never knew i can be so desperately to have the perfect person in my life to be together without having much negativity in it. grasping onto the reality, patient is the biggest key but i just don't know...

karma

i believe in natural karma which only god who determines it.. not the 'man-made' karma who thinks they are the god who should determine who should be given the karma.. i hope those people will get punishment from god and i will just move on with my life like how it should be.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Transformation

How do you mould an useless person to become useful like before....?

Saturday, November 26, 2011

part of the introvert of me, finds it relieving jotting down what's there in my mind than speaking to the others. with no offense *cause probably i did it without realising it*, i find it simply annoyed with people, who have no clue of what's happening in life, to start judge and mocking aloud at one's fault. by doing this, it adds more negativity into one's fault, allowing faulty moves to be lavished out continuously.. in other words, sitting, mocking and just hope for the recovery or miracles to happen won't help at all.. with this, your just entitled to gain the acknowledgement and that's it. who are you to judge it, if someone who just knew from the surface of the story. for me, i trust there is something that had happened within the life that made it happen. i'm still learning about it. some things that's seriously error, there must be deep pain to the root that blinds the vision. the kind of pain that comes unexpectedly but with expectation of no repetition, not knowing how to deal, and worst of all, devil's potion...


well, people still have their thoughts but be modest in the aspect of channeling it..

Love Life

To me, love are sacredly shared between 2 person and that's it. Got tangled up when I was pushed to the point that I forced myself to believe it works other than that. I guess I brought out the worst side of me or should I say the total opposite of me which I originally should have been. Matters got worst when additional elements was brought into my life and completely stirred up a Nasi Goreng for me. Bitter Sweet. However, in the end, I knew I heart *** all along but completely turn upside down with the anonymous. Finally, I still behold that real love are really meant for two.. Not more, not less. I don't want to selfishly asked *** to must break up so I need to back out in order to have a higher chance of getting back to the right track although it hurts a lot and break into infinity pieces. At least I know my third relationship was the most meaningful one up to date. Before that, i need a cherishing moment. and will forever be remembered.. =)


heart you always..

Faith

My friend touched about the word faith today. Which makes me realized I have a deep ignorant about it and didn't do any reflection on it. It's such a shame today that *after a brief reflection, at this point of life* I realized I only have 100% faith towards my family, relatives and certain friends... My best friends who use to be close to me but after parted away for few years for my studies and work, the gap when we did not catch up is too wide which makes me, at certain times, doubted the words they say meaning from 100% to probably 90%... This I still can make myself instead of choosing to doubt them, I rather trust and have faith in them 100%... The others, unfortunately enough have to based on my feelings, can either be neutrally 100% faith or ......... i know it's selfish but at this part of life, in order to get back on the right track, i guess it requires them to understand, like really, what it feels like to be like this provided with the attributes that has inside and also other events that had happened. It's not their fault because I know basically how things, events and life work around this cycle.


The saddest part is the................... *to be continue*

Before this, it was 100% without a doubt or with a little doubt but was made to 100% as well without question. It's sad when these sort of faith I had once before had changed. In order for me to get it back, i know i have to excruciate elements which have brought to the aftermath. I guess peace is what will bring back the norm life back.

Faith

My friend touched about the word faith today. Which makes me realized I have a deep ignorant about it and didn't do any reflection on it. It's such a shame today that *after a brief reflection, at this point of life* I realized I only have 100% faith towards my family, relatives and certain friends... My best friends who use to be close to me but after parted away for few years for my studies and work, the gap when we did not catch up is too wide which makes me, at certain times, doubted the words they say meaning from 100% to probably 90%... This I still can make myself instead of choosing to doubt them, I rather trust and have faith in them 100%... The others, unfortunately enough have to based on my feelings, can either be neutrally 100% faith or ......... i know it's selfish but at this part of life, in order to get back on the right track, i guess it requires them to understand, like really, what it feels like to be like this provided with the attributes that has inside and also other events that had happened. It's not their fault because I know basically how things, events and life work around this cycle.


The saddest part is the................... *to be continue*