DAYS OF REVELRY

i dunno.. i felt disarray with the things going through my mind.. i can be like so pumped up and everything's fine.. but the next second everything went tumbling down like a heavy erosion because there isn't any support.. when i think of support, i felt kinda lack of it.. maybe i didn't work hard enough to obtain it.. or maybe there isn't.. or maybe i've built a tall wall that blocks any sort of communication of acceptance..

sitting at home all alone facing the laptop just ain't working.. messaging, ym, msn and etc... just not the way to deal with whatever that's running through my emotion.. probably i just missed times in high school when i get to have fun, talk, and play with friends despite the mentally head cracking exams... but that was nice.. i felt accepted in a group.. this one.. kinda doubt it but there's time when i really enjoyed it.. i dunno.. probably my support group isn't that strong yet... but time is quite limiting..

i think i need to spice up my life a little bit or more.. i need to do something.. but still figuring.. and that's how i get myself into this whole damn situation.. always figuring and thinking..

i guess i need to pamper myself and make sure i'll enjoy it.. a lot..

pei qing is one of the first of my junior i get to know besides vicki.. both of them r owez together..

i still remember the time when u, vicki, me and jin first went out for a dinner.. jin keeps on complaining about the laugh even when there's nothing to laugh about.. since then, sometimes we will dine out when we met in the cafe.. we never miss the laughter even a bit.. ur owez smiling.. i always bump into u and we will have a short chat...

but now, ur not here anymore.. less laughter will fill up the atmosphere.. i'll be less lonely now since i will not bump into u anymore.. and no one will accompany me when i'm in the library alone.. i'm sad till this day and it's unbelievable.. i'm just overwhelmed by the whole situation cause i have no idea which news are true about your departure.. there are times i hope that this whole thing is a joke or at least it wasn't u.. but even with the initial PQ, i'm afraid, i instantly knew it meant pei qing...

nevertheless, i will always remember the smiles and laughters... it's hard to take in but slowly i know everything will be fine and u'll have a place where u'll just continue laughing and put smiles on others.. take care and have a safe journey, pei qing..

p/s : took the pic from feli since i got no better pic here of her..

gosh.. felt bad for not updating anything but i, seriously, am super lazy since most of my time is used for hibernating... i watched Terminator.. i didn't expect anything at all and i thought, "oh man, i sure fall asleep and snore in the cinema.. AGAIN.." but i didn't.. i was excited from the start till the end.. i was blown away.. this is definitely the MOVIE ya'ol MUST watch.. when i didn't fall asleep in any part of the movie, this is sure one of the movie that you need to watch..  

celebrated mother's day with grandma and grandpa.. so we went to grandpa's office first.. my grandpa has bee in the timber business for so so long already.. most of their sons which include my papa are in the timber business too..





and there's this one day, i got the chance to visit to this new place and i have to say it's gorgeous.. so so nice dat i want to live there forever..

i find myself liking this dumpling again.. nyum, nyum..

san xian..

*no idea what's the ingredient but it's Y-U-M-M-Y*

and i love my mum coz she made the house like secret recipe.. yummilicious cakes.. and it's always been cheese cake.. love it..

oreo baked cheese cake..

haha.. yeah.. my father LOVE TO STUFF ME LIKE MAKING A TURKEY DISH DURING CHRISTMAS.. where they stuff all the ingredients thru the butt.. but mine is thru mouth.. hahaha.. so wrong some how.. haha.. anyway, lucky i can compensate through exercise.. hopefully..

before... *got sotong kangkung... nice.. nyum2* after

nothing much to rave about the life of 'mayau'.. sama jak ngan terengganu cya..

but i've been doing alot of swimming after i came back from terengganu.. i don't wanna be the marine biologist who don't know how to swim.. but again it's not easy to swim.. without any proper guidance.. my liking for swimming was built up instantly, thanx to mal.. haha.. but still i really need to work my ass off to swim the proper way.. i need to get myself a swimming goggle as well.. although i have a diving mask, i guess i'll suffocate to death at the end of the pool if i were to use it..

haha.. now i can really enter triathlon if i manage to swim well.. which is like in 10-20 years time.. i know i can run, cycle and probably swimming.. wow.. not bad for a once-fat-ass guy.. i kicked ass.. anyway, just continue my routine like usual.. it's a sweet accomplishment..

*did i just ass...? or should it be arse...?*

*improper word.. dun use the word ass in a real conversation with people cause the ass stinks and dirty.. remember dun use the word ass... i should just censored the word ass, right.. but how to censored the word ass..? hmm..*

hey.. back in kuching already.. and yah.. it's been a while since i updated my blog.. i'm just simply lazy.. wanna sleep.. and sleep.. and sleep... let me just story you my daily life, bit by bit...

one morning, my papa brought my sis and myself to After 3.. it's weird, but i don't mind.. it's because it's quite expensive to dine in a cafe.. so, i jumped myself into dimsum and homemade kaya polo bun.. sadly, i din take the pic for polo bun.. anyway, it's quite ordinary.. but really expensive.. for a breakfast..

dimsum.. rm3.50 each.. wow..

one night, my friend took me out to a malay stall for dinner.. i seriously never dine in a malay cafe for dinner in kuching... so my friend introduced me ayam penyek.. special some more.. quite ok.. i dun find it spicy but my malay friend was bathing with sweat while eating.. haha.. 

ayam penyek special.. got ulam.. so it's quite healthy for me.. hehe..

one morning *again*, went out for breakfast with my uncle and grandma.. it was nice... 

my uncles and papa *only with the head*..  

this is the reason why i fear that i'll grow fat after married.. all my uncles was basketball

players and coaches before as what they claimed including my papa..

after they stop playing, they start to grow.. i mean really really grow.. they were

once hunky dudes but now, see for yourself... will most of us be like dat as we age...

my beloved grandma...

kolomee...

yes, i eat it at last and was dumbfounded by the taste.. yummmmyyy...

all my dinner were in sinwan cafe.. as usual, we always dine out.. and ordered almost the same food.. mostly unhealthy.. *urghh*  but i try to minimize it by eating more fruits and vege..

this is unhealthy but i like it.. haha.. got boxing chic.. butter chic.. wantan, calamari,

salad, and french fries.. 

fruits... and lok-lok.. 

cangkuk manis with eggs.. yummy.. my fav..

when i was in kl, i did random things.. but din take many pics cause i din find the mood to do so.. 

roti canai.. pisang and telur... took this in klia.. haha.. 

odd food but cheap.. 

tomyam siam meehoon with crab stick..

*just simply awful... no comment.. 

ops, i did it already..*

went to dinosaur exhibition.. now i understand why my mum prevent me from going to such exhibition.. just a waste of money when it's without any purpose..

saw this in times square... and i will try it when they are officially open... and i ate at papa's john pizza.. din take any pics.. the taste was not as exaggerating as pizza hut's one but was simple and nice..